Wow.. deff have not done one of these since february..

all i have to say is.. Summer 06 =) im excited!

girls state- a week and a half

san anotnio- 3 weeks

DESTIN W/ MY LOVE - one month!!

hmm i love summer.

ohh pssss.. dont talk trash about sumone you dont know =)  sweet life.

In the last 12 Hours have you...

1. Had sex: nope
2. Bought something: actually nope
3. Gotten sick: haha yah...
4. Sang: of course..
5. Been kissed: yes
6. Ate something: yuppp
7.Felt stupid: all the time

8. Talked to an ex: yes.. one of them is my best friend.
9. Missed someone: i miss him all the time
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Last person who...

1. Slept in your bed: me
2. Saw you cry: umm jess prolley. maybe kev
3. Went to the movies with: kevin
4. You went to the mall with: jess!

Have you ever...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: of course.
2. Got in a fight with your pet: hmm no?
3. Been to California: yup!
4. Been to Mexico: yup!
5. Been to Japan: nahh
6. Been to Canada: nope
7. Been to New York: of course

1) Who is the last person you high-fived? pshh someone at work...haha long story!
2) If you were drafted for war, would you serve? prolley?
3) Do you sleep with the tv on? yeah it gives light, and im scared of the dark! haha
4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton? nope
5) Have you ever won a spelling bee? 4th grade hahaha
6) Have you ever been stung by a bee? no thank god

7) How fast can you type? 70 words per a min
8) Are you afraid of the dark? i already told you
9) What color are your socks?  im wearing cow slippers
10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in? no
11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower? yesterday night
12) Do you knock on wood? ohh yes
13) Do you floss daily? no, every other
14) Do you wanna fanta? nope
15) Can you hula hoop? hahah im challenged at that.(mentally)
16) Are you good at keeping secrets? yes em
18) Do you know the Muffin Man? yup i ate him
19) Do you talk in your sleep? hahha yes.. werid thigns to.
20) Who wrote the book on love? idk?
21) Have you ever flown a kite? 5th grade we made one!
22) Do you ever wish on fallen lashes? all the time
23)Do you whiten your teeth? yes i have
24) Can you smell what the Rock is cooking? nope
25) Have you ever asked for a pony? yes...
26) Have you, or would you ever, donate sperm/eggs? no
27) Can you juggle? no
28) Missing someone now? yes
34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school? no
38) Can you handle the truth? depends, sometimes i don't want to
Q1) Sleep with or without clothes on? with to some extent
Q2) Prefer black or blue pens? black
Q3) Dress up on Halloween? hellz yeah
Q4) Like to travel? yes, i love to
Q5) Like Someone? no, i L-O-V-E someone
Q7) Who sleeps with you every night? nike
Q9) Want to get married? of course
Q10) To who? im only 16 about to be 17!
Q11) Are you a good student? i think
Q12) Are you currently happy? yes im extremely happy
Q13) Have you ever cheated on a test? whats cheating?
Q14) Birthplace? Minnesota
Q15) Christmas or Halloween? christmas.
Q16) Colored or black-and-white photo? black n white
Q17) do long distance relationships really work? haven't had to try
Q19) Do you believe in love? yes
Q20) Do you consider yourself the life of the party?? sometimes
Q21) Do you drink? ........??
Q22) Do you make fun of people? only to people who know im joking
Q23) Do you think dreams eventually come true? not really.. i hope not than  i would be dead by now
Q24) Favorite disney movie? Ice Princess and Whinne the Pooh!
Q25) ever moved? yes
Q27) What's up? hmmmmmm
Q29) Last time you cut your hair? july
Q30) Last person you talked to on the phone? peter
Q32) Loud or soft music? hmm idk
Q33) Mcdonalds or Burger King? yuck
Q34) Night or day? night
Q35) Number of pillows? 2
Q36) Piano or guitar? neither
Q37) future job? physical therapist
Q38) Current job? steak n shake
Q39) Current thought? is today going to be a good day?
Q40) Current longing? a kiss
Q41) Current disappointment? i made a 79 in apush
Q42) Current annoyance? my alarm thats going off
Q43) Last thing you ate? corn
Q44) Last thing you bought? clothes?
Q45) Most recent thing you are lookin forward to? my birthday.. so i can hang out with the love of my life
Q46) What are you wearing right now? sweat pants about to get in to jeans
Q47) Plans for the weekend? birthday stuff
Q48) What did you do today? woke up...
Q49) Ever have a near death experience? yes

hmm just had to do that.

Love you<3

hmm everything is going good soo far... heres pictures bc im bored

me n jess hot tub.. me kev n jes me

 cam jess me n kev at dinner

 cam jess me n kev

hmm whats in there? haha

 me n kevin

  emily being gay!

me n jewels me n brad drew being werid

 me n emily

 me n katie

 yes i know.. im werid!

 me n kev exchanging mum and garder!

 the three amigas.. physics class

allison, sean, me, n ashley!

While we're young and beautiful,
Kiss me like you mean it,
Treat me like I'm special,
Cover me with sweetness,
Cause a time will come,
When we're not so young, and beautiful,
While we're young and beautiful,
Living free and easy,
Here without a worry,
Dancing in our bare feet,
Cause when the summer's done,
When we'll not be so young, and beautiful.


It's a crazy ride
And baby, you and I,
are keeping that, sweet love alive
Tonight, while we're young and beautiful.

While we're young and beautiful,
We'll party down on Main street,
Wearing next to nothing,
Feeling every heart beat,
Having fun, while we're still young and beautiful.

It's a crazy, ride
And baby, you and I,
are keeping, that sweet love alive,
Tonight, while we're young and beautiful.

Beautiful,
Beautiful,
Young and beautiful,
Beautiful,
Beautiful,
Young and beautiful.

It's a crazy, ride
And baby, you and I,
Keeping our sweet love alive,
Tonight, while we're young and beautiful.
Oh, so beautiful.

While we're young and beautiful,
Cover me with sweetness,
While we're young and beautiful,
Kiss me like you mean it,
Like you mean it,
Like you mean it,
Like you mean it,
Like you do,

yet another year is almost over.. only 2 days away till a new year, a new begining. everything that has happened in the past year, wow... i dont think i regret any of it.

A year ago... second semester at "hell".. i finally quit soccer all together so i got to take blow off classes.. aka health and teacher aid. as much as any of us wanted to get out of the hell.. thats where most of my friends were. every morning walking with courtney up the stairs.. then walking around with eme and natalie every morning. it was like a tradition. most of my favorite memories from this past year come from second semester. juli and i spending the night together a couple of times through out semster.. just so we could b lazy and leave later for school.. or going to get donuts bc we were fattys..and then there was after 1st period every day.. i would go to my locker and Will would meet me there every day and walk me to 2nd period.. and after 4th/8th period we would walk back to my locker and his locker.. it was like a daily thing. he was my best friend. but you cant forget the travis dirr.. my brother. science together for basically 3 years.. and had the best times ever. then there was alg 2.. i reunited with maggie.. i remember back in 5th grade she was like my best friend.. but honestly.. lauren was my hero. through everything that second semster she was there for me. we had alg 2, lunch together, and then chemistry! sit in the bakc of chemistry room and and call out .. Mccraw mccraw! i swear we wouldnt have passed with out her. then there was 4th period teacher aid when i would go sit in another room and do nothing.. so for about 30 min i would talk to jared on my phone.

finally in february i got my license. freedom.. i loved driving for the first maybe 2 months, then i didnt like driving. you get the month of rush where you want to drive every where..driving is cool but.. i prefer now not to drive unless its to get away.

then by march, i had to make one of the hardest decisons... i decided to transfer to plano. i was leaving about half my friends. all i knew was kelsey, amanda, brittany, and jessica transfering. i didnt know if i would regret it later.. or what but i decided to go and experience something new, get a new start.

so the year ended.. and summer kicked off great. first weekend of summer was fun with my girls and boys.. then me n kelsey went to east n plano's graduation.. i quit one job and went to another job. i hung out with a lot of people i didnt think i would.. i met differnt boys and did different things.

through all of this though, jesscia you have been there for me. i mean we jsut became friends almost a year ago.. our anniversary is coming up. but serisouly, i dont think i could have gotten through this past year with out you. we have had wayy to many memories together and its been a long year with ups and downs.. i means from break ups and hearts broken to this boy and that boy.. we coudl go on and on. our weekend of fun..  driving around doing nothing.. movie nights.. i mean your liek my sister i never had. you were gone most of summer but we still talked and caught up with each other..this summer will be amazing.. florida!

soo summer ended... i was gettin more nervous realizing i wasnt going to east anymore with anyone. i wasnt to scared till i foudn out i didnt have lunch with anyone that had transfered. but to my luck.. i made a friend who has become one of my closests and we are more alike then ever. allison. me n sean had a class together.. and it was like alittle 4 groupsum in physics.. me allison ashley n sean. the 4 amigos. it was an amazing semsester even thou all three of them are leaving me now. then apush... allison was in my class again.. and i met bekah and bailey. those kids are the funniest people. off campus lunch i think is what everyone was lookign for.. even thou it got cut down by a whole 13 min. fall break came around and i went to new york with juli.. i think we had the best time ever.. HORSE BACK RIDING! haha.. and differnt things. amish people are cool.. haha. but half way through the week we found out horrible news.. i think everyone was shocked. it was a horrible time and period for everyone..

then homecoming came right after that.. and i went with kevin. kevin and i had been hangin out alot latley. he was like one of my best guy friends. homecoming was good, i mean nothign OMG but eh not bad... through out the next couple months.. me n kevin hung out more and more and idk, things changed. honestly its werid, bc i have known him forever.. for basically 12 years of my life almost and it took that long. i can be myself around him totally and never have doubt. ill be hoenst at first i thoguht he coudl be an asshole.. but really once youget to know him hes this amazing guy.  we joke around so much now that it doesnt bother me.. hes "God".. hes the shit. and yet he means the world to me. i wouldnt take back any of the past months with him, bc these were prolley one of the most amazing months. i remember being in class and allison would ask me wut u doing this weekend.. and i would be like, with kevin. and before anything happened i never thought it would. i never thought we would be who we are today. he has changed me in so many ways.

The year is coming to an end, an end of a chapter..and its time to open up a new one. its hardly possible to believe that in a year and a half we will be going off to college. one of the scariest/ best things going to happen. im so thankful for all the new friends and old friends i have in my life. yall have shapen me into who i am and i love you guys with all my heart.

a new year.. and a new begining.. and a new me

...Love....

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

pretty sure my life sucks right now.im stressed out with so much crap going on. school...exams coming up. its literally kicking my butt. i dont kno what my grades r going to be anymore. they really suck thats all i know, n i dont mean suck alittle..i mean BIG TIME.

i dont know anymore.. i just wish it was break and i didnt have to worry about school or anything else.

i honestly cant wait for my brother to come home. hes one of the only people who really understands me and i miss him like crazy. i am able to talk to him about anything. hes like my best friend.

blah

suck

i just dont know any more...